30-B4-30 List Update

I figured since I'm HALF WAY THERE (ugh) I better give myself an update and try to get everything completed... That's the goal anyway. :)

1. Bake bread
2. Drive Joe's truck (he's had it over a year and I have refused)
3. RUN a 5K 
4. Go on a hike with Joe
5. Learn to can (like, prepare canned fruit, etc.)
6. Make carmeled apples
7. MOVE OUT of my parents house!
8. Volunteer at a charity/organization
9. Read a book about marriage
10. Go to a live tour 
11. Take Brenna sledding (I hope it snows in October!)
12. Go on a family picnic
13. Learn how to pop a champagne cork
14. Read a classic novel
15. Plan and take a "girls only" trip
16. Make my own popsicles
17. Buy a strangers meal
18. Complete the 30-day "Squat Challenge" 
19. B-crew photoshoot
20. Complete all 30 days of Jillian's 30-day Shred
21. Plan monthly date nights with hubby
22. Lose the baby fat!23. Try new BlendTec recipes
24. Cook a turkey (never done it!)
25. Blog at least one time per month- EPIC FAIL... I already can't "complete" that with missing two months!
26. Write a message in a bottle
27. Try archery
28. Get my concealed weapons permit (hope I can rally someone to come with!)
29. Save for a huge down payment on our future house
30. ….. For Joe's eyes only! Hahaha, I knew he'd appreciate it.

So basically....

Completed: 9

Need to complete: 20

Can't complete: 1 (blogging each month), maybe 2 (taking Brenna sledding... winter was barely here so we didn't get a chance to go.)

One Year Ago...

I was holding her first... calming her with my voice. We instantly bonded and my heart finally knew how it was going to love two little blessings.

That night we knew she was going to have to be a fighter. Low oxygen levels and too much fluid in the lungs, into the NICU she went for eight, long days. She had no name until she was two days old.

Brynlee Joy Walker fought off early signs of pneumonia and finally came home to meet all her family! That day is one of the best days of my life. Seeing Brenna talk to her, touch her, interact with her for the FIRST time was magical. I will treasure that video my whole life. I felt so complete in that moment.

AND NOW.... She's *O*N*E* and SO MUCH FUN! But where did all that time go?? I can't accept that it came so quickly. Here are some of her photos, done by: PS.... Photos by Sally

We had a fun time celebrating her birthday at Grandma and Grandpa Greenbergs! We had a family brunch there to celebrate the big day. A friend of mine helped me with the theme of pink and yellow & balloons!

Cake bites for everyone else!

Everyone wrote a special birthday message on the picture matte for Brynlee

This was fun idea I found off Etsy!

She was excited to try and walk all day because she just figured it out yesterday!

G. & G. Bday loves

Big Sister was a big help opening presents!

Granny Mary made her her own "coat of many colors"!

It's time for cake now- YAY!

She jumped right in!

Biggest smile of the day!

Literally trying to do summersaults afterwards! What a silly baby!

We had a blast celebrating little Brynner's first birthday even though she won't remember it, I always will! We have enjoyed her so much this last year and thank God for her every night. She is just what we needed and it's our joy raising her!


Some extra one-year-old info!


She is walking, talking and expressing frustration very well!

Words she can say: momma, dada, papa, grandma (gamma), gaw gaw, hi, bye, kitty cat, qua-qua, ball, cracker, Brenna (Nenna!), boo,  (Brenna is certain she can say igloo & hippo!) ;)

Things she enjoys: trying to sneak up the stairs, go into Brenna's room and grab anything in sight, empty a drawer as fast as she can, being chased, holding tissues and blowing her nose, peek-a-boo, bubbles, getting into trash cans and eating cat food- OY!





Here are a few favorites from the last few months:

Mommy and Daddy love you to pieces. Every day we marvel at your sweetness and can't get enough!!!

Finding Myself in December

I have a really sweet friend who is a mom of two little beauties about the same age as my girls who inspired me to do a little planning this year for December. I wrote out some ideas and each day we did something fun to prepare us for Christmas. (Thanks Mekensy! <3)

In doing this what I found was an unexpected journey. I thought I would just enjoy seeing the excitement in Brenna's beautiful face & enjoy getting out of the house together, but I also happened to find ME. The New Me. The Mother-Of-Two-Now ME. 

I don't know if it's something a lot of moms just don't talk about or if we just didn't pay much attention to what moms were saying as we were growing up, but it takes T-I-M-E to feel like YOU again after a baby. I can now say this with certainty after two kids and can actually talk about this out loud. A lot of the incredible friends I have are moms who have shared similar experiences.

Sometimes I would wake up and feel disoriented and distracted. I would be overwhelmed so easily over things I used to handle no problem. I knew I had to do x, y & z but instead I sit down and zone out watching a TV show or read a book I can get lost in. Getting myself ready for the day was daunting. A walk outside felt like a marathon. I didn't cook much. Cleaned much less. Stayed home even more. And luckily, the most important things I needed to do were simple: love those children; feed them, hug them, play with them, enjoy them. And that's all my husband wanted me to do, too...

But it was difficult for me to allow myself to let so much go. I am a goer, doer and a (simple) scheduler and that changed. I had to let a lot go and be okay with it until I felt like I could handle some of those responsibilities in a healthy way. I am still getting there, especially with the cooking thing! (Can I get an AMEN?!) So for first time moms, I just hope they know what I didn't know… That it's okay to give yourself time. LOTS of time. Weeks, months and even years to feel like you again. It's different for everyone adjusting to a whole new way of life. But you are normal!


Here are some of the activities (that I got photos of) my family and I did throughout December that brought us all together and helped me plug in to life in a revitalizing way:

Ice Skating

Movie Date- "Frozen"

Family Dinners

Zoo Lights… BRRRR!!!

Building a Snowman

Gingerbread House 101 With Daddy

Made Ornaments

More Family Dinners

Christmas Ring Countdown

Festival of Trees

Professional Pictures with All the Grandkids as a surprise for Grandma and Grandpa!

Baking Day! Yum!

Brynlee's First Christmas

It was a Great Holiday!

Other fun ideas I didn't get photos of were: Going to Menchies (our favorite frozen yogurt shop!), watching Christmas movies together (The Grinch, Charlie Brown Christmas, Frosty), driving around looking at Christmas lights, lots of hot chocolate, and singing "Happy Birthday" to Jesus and letting Brenna blow out the candles. :)